Hi friends,

In more ways that one my family and I are preparing ourselves for moving. Clearing out the small apartment shared by us six. Forgotten pieces of yesterdays found hidden in undisturb corners. I also take this time to clean my my soul. Anyone looking for a big bag of hopes with shards of shattered dreams? How much for a working but "broken" heart. I would gladly trade into you a worried mind for some peace of mind. Its a long long road ahead, I just hope that we can somehow manage to stay afloat.

(I've been quiet lately, not because I am brooding. If you haven't heard the Asian Submarine cable connecting this side of the world was down by earthquake.)

I am trying real hard to eke out a living, having closed my business prematurely on the count of PIPS (I am not blaming) and the numbers on the screen. Now I am in another state with zero credibility and new market. I do what I can from writing to tutoring to make some $$$. As for life insurance, I already cashed in the policy already to further invest in PIPS (I am not blaming) so no help there.

Sometimes I lay awake and think about what I've achived in life, nothing much. I take comfort to know that my family loves me and appreciates me. But the idealisitic, bright-eyed person that once was me is now a cynical, bitter (slightly or maybe a bad after taste ), untrusting and selfish (looking out for me and family only). I don't know if that's bad or good but my mom will balance me out whatever my decision. Lost my dad along while back and we all miss him alot.

So any takers for the big bag of hopes and shattered dreams, cut you a good deal? But I am sure you have some of your own. Just get rid of them like what I am trying to do. Count my blessings, get ready and move on into 2007. I want to leave my worries, doubts and fears for 2006.

Have a truly Happy and Prosperous New Year!

theBat$

Btw due to the recent floods in South of Malaysia, I am predicting the date of the trial MAY be changed. They down south are bracing for another wave of floods.