Originally Posted by
shotgunsusie
the respirtory/cardiologist expert looked at mom this morning and said that she wasnt getting any better in her lungs and she needed to have at least a bipap on. they took her to icu and she refused to keep the mask on her face and wanted to go home.
now this is a woman who is still working 40 hours a week at walmart stocking shelves at 85 because she likes having the insurance and if she wasnt working she would go home and sit down and die. she didnt want that.
so, when questioned by the icu staff about directive on keeping her alive i thought you gotta be kidding me? this woman who keeps trudging along because she knows if she stops she wont make it?
well, shes fighting tooth and nail against the respirator that they have put her on to repair her lungs enough to breath on her own. i had to make the decision to put her on the respirator on my own, something that i look at mom with the tubes in her and wonder what was i thinking? i have brain damage for god sakes.
after all that i reach out to my significant other for some strength at one of the lowest points of my life and she says, i cant come which i wasnt expecting her to i realize her career requires dedication thats 24/7 and ive chosen to accept that, but, youre not going to want to hear this maybe its time to let your mom go. (thanks for the support)
after all that i realize that this all doesnt matter anymore. no amount of money is worth it.